好久不来了

在中国上不了，在学校没时间上。。。真是矛盾。
现在时间都花在德文上了，真不知道其它课作业来了该怎么办呢。好问题！

It's a Trip of No Return

So I left, just as I came four years ago
Brought nothing, and could take nothing away
Maybe I can always go back, as people said
to the island that is so near, yet so far away
But what shall I do when I am back
when people are no longer the people of the old days…
Friends become acquaintance, acquaintance strangers
while all the memories are so easily washed away
Wrong! It is a trip of no return

dedicated to Lu Xin, my closest friend on the island

Interesting things about my company's name, GG

as some people know or otherpeople dont know, i am now working for an online gaming platform (something like 浩方) called GG. i find many interesting things about its name!

The name of 浩方,the biggest WC3 online platform in China may come from hf (have fun). but my company is called gg. as every game starts with "hf", it ends with "gg". "hf" may be omitted, but "gg" is always necessary!

so i make some ad for my company!
GG, the unescapable end of any match.
GG, it is just a matter of time...

ZT

"也许每个优秀的人都有自己优秀的理由.但平庸的人大多只有一个原因,他们追求安逸。" PS: actually i am often extremely proud, and i wont be interested to repeat what others have already said. but if someone speaks my mind in such a concise and aggressive manner, i will be more than willing to put it here.


PS: (April 23th, 1118) i understand e post is aggressive, and maybe even insulting, espcially at this special point of time, as ppl warned me immediately after i posted it.
i concede that e post is annoying for everyone when he looks at it for the first time. and i understand it is utterly not in my interest to put it up. however, my intention is just to ask a question with this post, is 安逸 really your life style? If u can read it again seriously, will you still take it as an annoying post? if u can live with the above sentence happily, then it is definitely your way of life, as you are not strongly attracted by the potential to do great things, at an even great cost, of course. but if you cannot live with the sentence, then ask yourself again, is that really your way of life.
i hope it is that simple. i have already got my anwer, and e rest of it is your business.
Enjoy

new post

always thinking abt writing a new post... then i cannot find internet access... then i hesitate... then i lose the momentum... so e update on this blog is quite slow...

but anw, as i promise kandyhoo to write a light-hearted post, and it still seems doable within my own ability, i shall keep my words. so i shall hereby introduce my new job!!! =)

after 3 months of teaching, i think i shall choose something else to do. but i ended up somewhere that i didnt dream to come, e computer-gaming industry... (lets call it an industry first)

although everyone think wyf is a lousy gamer, he was e one who first introduce DotA to e Chinese High ppl 2 years' ago, who were still engrossed in e outdated CS... now he made another adventurous move, turned DotA into a profession clap clap clap =)


but then, i had to say goodbye to my college teachers. i m pretty sad at e farewell dinner... Mr Chow is so nice to me. he didnt scold me alth i almost screw up everything. Mr Lee is always there to help, Mr Gow there to make fun, Mr Kwek there to blow me up... now i have to leave Hwa Chong. Sooner or later, i had to leave e new job... and not long after now, i shall leave everything here... all e friends, things, and going on for another venture...

gd luck to myself, gd luck to everyone

random thoughts for random events

A Level results --- note: its only for my personal reflection. Dont take it for yourself and start criticize immediately =) thx...
A level 考得还不错，而且上篇说了我也不是很care，但是GP也不是那么的ideal。所以就小小的郁闷一下。但告诉我爸妈的时候，他们却不同意。他们的意思是GP能拿B3是我现在这个阶段能发生的最好的事情了，比拿了A1或是A2要好得多。这样想想也对。anw A level 的成绩是让别人看的。所以让别人看到B3是最好的事了。老天真是对我太厚待，不管什么时候都帮上我一把。然后一定要感谢爸妈，虽然你们在学习上没怎么管我或是帮我，也没有从小培养我一技之长（每次都是让我半途而废了），但我现在明白了学习好不好，有没有一技之长都不是那么的重要，重要的是 foster my own philosophy, which stay with me

前途：
这段时间“前途”一定是个热门话题了。不管是...的前途，...的前途，大家都要讨论。想想为什么自己就从来不想想自己的前途呢？比如说以后的工作赚不赚钱等等的。不过要知道以后工作赚不赚钱先得知道以后做什么工作啊。像我这个连大学读什么都不知道的人，这类问题不着边际。现在的想法就是快快乐乐enjoy大学四年。(full stop)
所以就不同意一些说法，比如说要尽快读完大学？？？（我听到的最好的解释是一些工作是吃年轻饭的，所以要早早毕业。）
上次不知道和什么人谈起说我可能学物理（其实就是瞎吹），那人就说那你以后会去当老师或是researcher啦？我当时就想反驳说我大学学什么和我以后干什么工作有什么关系，但没说出口。因为我知道自己的一些想法好像已经不能被大众所接受了。
还是用Steve Jobs在Stanford graduation上的一句话鼓励鼓励自己吧 =)
Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.
我知道在我这个年龄的idealist已经不是很多了。但起码我还是。follow your heart, and everything else is secondary.

A level results

A few days before the release of A level results, i would always be asked the questions, "how do u feel about it? Are you feeling nervous?" My instant response at that time was always, "who cares?" although i didnt say e two words in such a straightforward manner.

yup, i always had the impression that A level results was nothing. it would not make a difference in my life at all. people may say that it is only true for me. but i believe it is the same for many of us scholars. to most people, it is just a 面子问题. and people like me who dont care about 面子, it is virtually nothing.

however, it is not true... not true for so many people out there, where the results of a single exmaination make a difference between life and death. it may just completely alter one's path of life, leaving the person with no alternatives. for example, without a certain grade, you cant go for e medical school, no matter how hard you dream to be a doctor, just because e competition there is too fierce. hence, the future of a potential doctor is cut. he has to choose another career that he may not like, and...face the harsh side of life.

when i saw that, i really feel my heart is broken, and i feel so powerless that i cant do anything to help.

i m so fortunate that i was nv left with such a situation. i was not even tested by stress of an impt exam. i got admitted before i went for my graduation exam for primary and junior high school. i went thru O level with ease, and finally, i even "dun care" about A level... 真TMD欠扁...

to see e positive side of it, maybe that person is trained with e experience, and hence able to cope with similar situations better than me in e future. (maybe take a different perspective is just a kind of brainwash, as someone suggested) but up to now, i m just sad.

"maybe i am not mature enough." "-_-#, but what is mature?"

why so many girls always like to say "i am not mature enough" =(
can you tell me what is mature before you make e statement? what is "MATURE"?
it seems a big word, one of e big big words that out of my comprehension.
i only know peeple at different stages of life would have different opinions for the same things. But which is correct, the opinion she has when she was a child, or the belief she would hold when she is very old? i seriously dunno.
so what is mature?!

maybe they also dun care what mature means. it is just their method to end a conversation effectively...by talking something that i dun understand =) have a nice sleep

END OF THE DIARY

"Anything with a beginning has an end..." So is the diary. As the content is the diary was not really compatible with the theme of the blog, I consider it as just a temporary decoration, for entertainment purpose only. Hope some of you are entertained! =) Now back to the original theme...

wandering over the world

i will write diary. so i will put it here.... sometime later

面临重大机遇，每个人至少有一次机遇。发现并紧紧抓住它，你就成功了。当人们回头看时，成功的人往往想，在成功之前我怎么会走那么多弯路？失败的人也会想，这么简单的事我怎么当时想不到？他们都忘记了，当时大家几乎都看不到希望。
以此致所有在这个时期都看不到希望的人。

PS：这是我爸说的话，感觉有一定的道理。

最近想推荐一个动画片，呵呵。
其实是挺以前看的老片子了，但是现在想想的确是不错的，钢之炼金术士。
一开始是好玩的动画片而已，但看再去就会觉得里面讲的东西，如人性对强大力量的欲望，其利弊，还有很多东西很是有现实意义。特别是里面提到的forbidden knowledge 的概念，是我以前从没有想过的。
最喜欢里面的炎之炼金术士，感觉里面的为了达到自己认为得正义而不择手段不惜代价的做法和自己的性格很像。或许以后也会像他一样最终放弃自己极为不现实的想法，但其实已经做了点事了。

Self motivated

Originally, I would like to compare sth betweeen Hwa Chong and RJ... but then i think it is too flammatory, so better leave it to myself.

But I just read an article on "Reader" (Chines magazine) and find something similar (not entirely the same). I am more convinced that a person's future is determined by his character (determination, resilience, attitude towards life) rather than calibre.

The weak who quit the competition only give the strong a better chance to succeed. (not directed to any specific event)

I will again illustrate the point further next time.
PS: I am sorry to give that excuse every time. But I am really busy these days. I think articles on my blog are supposed to be used to give myself something to ponder upon, rather than provide others thoughts (which I think I cannot really achieve). So I do not need to record down the details.

what is moral is practical, what is practical is moral

Ethics and practicality may seem contradictary in some areas. But my argument is that what is moral is what is viable and practical. There is no difference, or the only difference is the matter of time.
I shall illustrate further on my point when I have time.

THE LAST ARTICLE IS DELETED, FOR A THOUSAND GOOD REASONS...

MAYBE LX IS RIGHT, I SHOULD NOT PUT UP THE THINGS ON THE BLOG.

I THINK MOST PPL HAVE MISUNDERSTANDING ABOUT ME, AND THAT ARTICLE ONLY MAKES THE MISUNDERSTANDING MORE SERIOUS.

MAYBE I SHALL NEVER SPEAK MY TRUE FEELING TO ANYONE. AND MAYBE EVERYONE SHALL STAY ISOLATED DOWN IN HIS HEART. THAT IS THE WAY TO SURVIVE IN THIS WORLD.

HENCE I SHALL NEVER SAY ANYTHING ABOUT MYSELF IN THIS BLOG.

HAVE A NICE DAY.