random thoughts for random events

A Level results --- note: its only for my personal reflection. Dont take it for yourself and start criticize immediately =) thx...
A level 考得还不错，而且上篇说了我也不是很care，但是GP也不是那么的ideal。所以就小小的郁闷一下。但告诉我爸妈的时候，他们却不同意。他们的意思是GP能拿B3是我现在这个阶段能发生的最好的事情了，比拿了A1或是A2要好得多。这样想想也对。anw A level 的成绩是让别人看的。所以让别人看到B3是最好的事了。老天真是对我太厚待，不管什么时候都帮上我一把。然后一定要感谢爸妈，虽然你们在学习上没怎么管我或是帮我，也没有从小培养我一技之长（每次都是让我半途而废了），但我现在明白了学习好不好，有没有一技之长都不是那么的重要，重要的是 foster my own philosophy, which stay with me

前途：
这段时间“前途”一定是个热门话题了。不管是...的前途，...的前途，大家都要讨论。想想为什么自己就从来不想想自己的前途呢？比如说以后的工作赚不赚钱等等的。不过要知道以后工作赚不赚钱先得知道以后做什么工作啊。像我这个连大学读什么都不知道的人，这类问题不着边际。现在的想法就是快快乐乐enjoy大学四年。(full stop)
所以就不同意一些说法，比如说要尽快读完大学？？？（我听到的最好的解释是一些工作是吃年轻饭的，所以要早早毕业。）
上次不知道和什么人谈起说我可能学物理（其实就是瞎吹），那人就说那你以后会去当老师或是researcher啦？我当时就想反驳说我大学学什么和我以后干什么工作有什么关系，但没说出口。因为我知道自己的一些想法好像已经不能被大众所接受了。
还是用Steve Jobs在Stanford graduation上的一句话鼓励鼓励自己吧 =)
Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.
我知道在我这个年龄的idealist已经不是很多了。但起码我还是。follow your heart, and everything else is secondary.

A level results

A few days before the release of A level results, i would always be asked the questions, "how do u feel about it? Are you feeling nervous?" My instant response at that time was always, "who cares?" although i didnt say e two words in such a straightforward manner.

yup, i always had the impression that A level results was nothing. it would not make a difference in my life at all. people may say that it is only true for me. but i believe it is the same for many of us scholars. to most people, it is just a 面子问题. and people like me who dont care about 面子, it is virtually nothing.

however, it is not true... not true for so many people out there, where the results of a single exmaination make a difference between life and death. it may just completely alter one's path of life, leaving the person with no alternatives. for example, without a certain grade, you cant go for e medical school, no matter how hard you dream to be a doctor, just because e competition there is too fierce. hence, the future of a potential doctor is cut. he has to choose another career that he may not like, and...face the harsh side of life.

when i saw that, i really feel my heart is broken, and i feel so powerless that i cant do anything to help.

i m so fortunate that i was nv left with such a situation. i was not even tested by stress of an impt exam. i got admitted before i went for my graduation exam for primary and junior high school. i went thru O level with ease, and finally, i even "dun care" about A level... 真TMD欠扁...

to see e positive side of it, maybe that person is trained with e experience, and hence able to cope with similar situations better than me in e future. (maybe take a different perspective is just a kind of brainwash, as someone suggested) but up to now, i m just sad.