God is always fair.

math competition

why not go for the math competition? actually i can. just pon SRP. not difficult. why not get a calculator? anw it will be got by a person strong in math again. ppl who r not good at math will still not get a chance. but still not feel like going...
why
fear to lose? maybe. do well in AIME, want carry on. but actually a lost is more suitable for me. it is the time to lose. who am I aft all? not a person gd at math, i hope.
Then y? maybe the calculator dun belong to me. And I am not interested. So need. Maybe too many ppl ask me for it, cant cope. Then just dun go. I forget my original reason ald.
……oh, remember. I dun want my name to be mentioned again.
When AIME results come out, seniors all say wuh so strong. Todae some gal even say I was powerful???? Sick. Nothing proud to be gd at math. I did not work hard at it. You wont be proud of it if e reputation is not earned by u. it is earned by luck.

Btw, want to say get v irritated when ppl in my class appear so cocky. Anw what is MAP??? School held the selection and form e class not to let them show off in front of their peers. They r just gd at math, NOTHING more. School forms the class is to let them compete wif top students from other schools, I mean RJ. When they satisfy just cuz they r better than their peers in the schools, I feel like to omit. Aft all When SMO comes, what can they do???? Earn the honour for school, or lose its face. When got 1 in AIME, I feel damn cold, feel hopeless of HC. What should we do, what can we do? Sit there, be laughed at by other JCs, laughing at our peers in the same school at e same time. So irony. So pitiful. So sad.
When I see ppl from other s3 classes, I feel like owing them something. When we get the chance to enter map instead of them, we ald owe them something. Can we live up to their expectations??? Can we live up to e school’s expectations??? Then How dare we laugh??? I dun have e face to…

Too busy

too busy all these days. so have not bloged for a long time.
but Lu says i was also saying i am too busy all the time when i was in sec 3 and 4. so maybe i always feel too busy bah. then there is nothing wrong.
have both srp and nrp, too busy liao. but srp prof actually not very gd. he is too busy too. last time when i met him, waited at his door for 40 min. this time wait for 35 min, stillno person. qi4 si3 wo3 le. want to do nanoscience, but prof rejected. sigh..